That one statement has stuck with me now for a long time. I'll never forget when a close friend uttered those words to me during a very discouraging time in my life.
I wonder, how many times a day we question a possible second outcome? I know I do it. From a meal at lunch to a comment made to a friend, I am always reliving and reprocessing a situation to make sure there was no possible way I could have made the "wrong" choice. How exhausting is that? As if my irrational thinking a couple of hours after a situation has any power to actually change the outcome.
There is a very strong scent of insecurity among this generation, and yes I know I'm a part of that. Sometimes I lay awake at night, my mind racing with attacking thoughts about a conversation or a choice that, in my mind, has completely blocked my chance of "success" whether it be relational or career based.
Where has all of this come from? Since when have I forgotten who I was created to be? And how can I be so easily convinced of defeat? I fully accept the fact that I allowed this. By even entertaining the idea that I could somehow destroy God's ultimate plan for me, I am walking in extreme arrogance. Like God is in Heaven saying, "Ahhh, I wish he wouldn't have said that, I don't know how I am going to get her to marry him now! Oh what to do, what to do"or "Oh I can't believe he hit that note, how am I going to get him hired again?" Now you see, that sounds stupid to you now, but how many times do we question what we do? I am not advocating a life of reckless behavior and choices. But I am advocation walking in a peace knowing that you haven't messed it up. There is a master plan that you are fitting into, along with all of your quirks and wrong steps.
This is what I know to be true. The Lord has never let me ruin anything, because I can't ruin a perfect plan. I may make mistakes, and cause myself frustration due to carelessness but it all fits in my life like some kind of elaborate tapestry or 1,000 piece puzzle. I hope that in reading this you can gain some solace knowing that you haven't messed it up. You haven't missed the boat. Your time hasn't passed. Wait patiently upon the Lord and continue your journey, enjoying every bump, hill, and scenic route along the way.
Living Plan A,
Cavanaugh
